Haiz

Tired Day! Tired Week! EXHAUSTING FUTURE AHEAD!

Welcome to my fark up life sia. Stuck in a fark up course. With fark up classmates and fark up lecturers! Already gt school probs. Relationships probs..

Now friendship probs. I CANT BELIEVE ITS ALL HAPPENING TO ME.

God wanna give me prob one by one arh. One havent settle another one came.

Fark sia. How to survive like that? Mom nag without a reason. Dad only think of negative things abt me. OUTDATED MIND.

Why nobody wanna understand me? You’ll act blur or what? Knn. Why is everyone changing? Why do i feel like my presence in this world means nothing? Love ones seems so far away. You all wanna leave me or planning to go than go lorh! 

Dont say you love me bt inside you dont.

Dont say its my fault when its not.

Dont stay just to please me.

Dont assume stuff about me.

LASTLY. DONT BE SO FAKE. 

p.s i can love whoever i want bodoh. my farking heart let me farking manage it larh sial. you go and take care of ur own. Unless u dont have one urh.
(MASS BASHING^^)

~Ayeshah~

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Reblogged from REBORN PROCESS
weenaha: Only if i die tonight. haiz.

(via rotten-to-the-core)
Exactly. I always wanted this in picture form.

weenaha: Only if i die tonight. haiz.

(via rotten-to-the-core)

Exactly. I always wanted this in picture form.

Boo!

*Melts*

Sweet isnt it his smile?
Atiba bby…

[A]hmad [T]amimi [I]ndra [B]in [A]tan

Sucha sweetheart, You’ll always be my bby, :)

~atib[A]yeshah~

Addicted To This FATTY once upon a time..

Love This Song All Over Again! =))

Njoy!

~Ayeshah~

"what’s rightfully yours will always be yours. If it goes away, it’ll find it’s rightful way back.”
-Michi"

Love this.. =)

Tears and Smiles at the same tyme. 

i love edward. Both Edward. *hugs*

~Ayeshah~

Last Words To Him.. Tagged Journalled.

=All Good Things Must Come To An End=

Im nt saying its the end. But for now i wanna close this chapter.
Ytd i saw a side of him that really upsets me.
Th way i tried to be patient towards th whole thing because of the love i had for him,
it dont seem to work out.
He just bash hes words at me was so harsh.
Makes me think that its not my fault why are you making it sucha big deal?
Its a misunderstanding. Stupid misunderstanding.
And he didnt even give me the assurance that he believe in what i was trying to explain.
He left me crying and i couldnt sleep the entire night waiting for another reply from him,
atleast a reply that will make me realise that everything is gonna be alrite, let it go cause it was just a misunderstanding..
But? i get nothing, but silence.

*btw Michi thx for trying to accompany me last night. =)

If one day i really did make a mistake, how will he react towards me?
Hit me? Shout at me? Worst, LEAVE ME?

He once state in his journal
”If u want to have this kind of love, u have to trust each other and love her every single minute..
Like people say it takes two hand to clap..”

So wheres the trust?
Am i the only one clapping?

i was the one that called him that night cz i was worried.
i was the one that text him that morning saying have u waked up? are u gg sheesha.?
i tried to have a convo.
But the whole day was just silence, till the next day afternnoon.

You miss the old ayeshah? the sweet loving character?
Youre hoping for that ayeshah to come back?

Lemme tell you..
i miss the old indra.. the sweet calm caring understanding loving manje Indra..
No more. The one that will text me and ask what im doin, have i eaten, what hes doin now,
or just simply random ily or imy…  and oh reply to my pic comments and dont ignore me if i wanna own.

i guess its just something i cant have anymore. All i know i only have memories.

So .. im gonna put my future first.
i wanna let go for few months.
Im nt letting go of you forever.
Just for awhile..  Awhile..

Specially to you, Papa ;
” i know you will read this, so here i go,
remember wherever you are if ur playlist starts playing my recording,
and you think of me, i want you to know that somewhere im thinking of you too.
Youre the kind of person that i wont wanna throw away.
i’ve loved you and i’ll always love you.
Please take good care of urself, when youre sick pls be strong..
cz i cant be there to call you to make sure youre alright, or text you to give you back ur strength. Like i always do.
Mama will always pray for ur safety and pray that you’ll always be happy and successful in whatever you do.
Dont ever ruin your life and go back to ur old ways.
cause that will be the day that mama will disappear forever from ur life.
i rmbr the first sweetest thing you said that all the stars were in my eyes?
Well everynight if theres stars above shining on you,
it means that mama is thinking and looking after you that night. Rmbr that.
Well take care bby.. i will be back i promise. ily. ”

~Indrayeshahrul~






i-Talent 2010 Vocal Finalist Zul Nor Farahin Haron ITE Simei~

I didnt expect him to sing so well!!!
Too bad he didnt win! But hey!! Youre awesome!!
ZUL I CANT BELIEVE YOU MADE THIS FAR TO SING! WOAH!

Michi!!! What happen to us?? Remember him? He auditioned with us! The sports management dude! Ring a bell? =)
hahahah..
Cool! =) Enjoy! 

~Ayeshah~

Head to toe we match you know.
Together watching the falling snow,
Staying warm beside the fire, looking out the window.
I’m loving everything you say and do,
Tell you when you say you feel it too,
I’m gonna say that you’re the one, and that my search is done.
‘Cause you,
You make me feel,
That everything is going right,
That I can go to sleep tonight,
And awake to find you here.
You make me feel,
That everything is going right,
That I can go to sleep tonight,
And I wake up to your voice, down, blankets and pillows.

You love the heat, the warmth, the sun
And I completely agree with that one.
Dry heat, a nice breeze and a hammock hung between two trees.
From the dimples to the smile,
From your heart all the way to mine.
We fit, we match, we go, I think you oughta know,
Think you oughta know.
You make me feel,
That everything is going right,
That I can go to sleep tonight,
And I wake up to your voice, down, blankets and pillows.

You and I we both know,
We match in ways that they’ll never know.
You make me feel,
You make me feel,
That everything is going right,
That I can go to sleep tonight,
Oh and awake to find you here.
You make me feel,
That everything is going right,
That I can do to sleep tonight,
And wake up to your voice, down, blankets and pillows.


Lovely Song By Gabe Bondoc. -We Match-

Urm.. Haish..Brr.. ENJOY!

~Ayeshah~

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AND THIS!
I COULD KISS HIM. HE MAKE THE MOST AWESOME MIXES!
SINGAPORE NEEDS A DJ LIKE HIM!

DAMN. MICHI! BRING ME TO A CLUB. LOL.

~Ayeshah~

I BLAST THIS! TO DISSOLVE MYSELF IN THE WORLD OF ELECTRO.
IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD ATLEAST.TO GET AWAY FROM ALL THE SHIT!

A WEEK AGO DJ BLEND SAYS TO ME ” THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR NICE COMPLIMENTS ;)”
AND I SAID “URE WELCOME SWEETY! KEEP EM BEATS COMING!. =)”

~Ayeshah~

Aperh Nie!

First of all i know this is supposing to be a music kinda tumblr… but since now me and mich aint producing any form of what you call MUSIC!
im just BLOGGING! WATEVER! Pfftt.

WELL ;(Modified version of my journal on tagged below!)

Ferst of all.. Before i start i wanna say its not cause of my PMS! Nope. Ok!

*Whats happening? Each day, i can count the amount of texts i receive from you and sent to you.Eventhough theres one when you wake up and one before u sleep! BUT STILL IN BETWEEN?
Its fading each day..Everything seems diff.. Well since the incident ytd.
Dont say NO. If i feel it. You would feel it. Fine! to start it off, its ALL MY FAULT. I REJECTED YOU!! LIKE 5 TYMES!
EVEN AFTER SHARENA! AND EVEN WHEN YOURE WITH DEWI!
Im not blaming you. Or neither am i bashing at you right now thru this journal. Im just so upset.
You want me to be online. But youre ignoring me. U change ur dp, ur pm, but you cant reply me?
Back off the screen do you know im in tears?
While you karaoke-ing? youre so happy.. Or i dont know.. You should be happy.. You should enjoy life.. But, you promised to think of me.
Im dealing with so much things..
Some bytches were spitting words on me.
Im confuse of how to settle my adek angkat probs!
My mom were just nagging.
Im gg thru cramps.
Im gg thru heartbreak.
All i ask for is for you to just talk to me. Is that so much? You know that youre the only guy that can make me feel ease and calm . Thats why i’ve liked you in the first place. You always know what to say to make me smile again. But, now? Aper dah jadi?
i dont expect you to call me. i dont wanna waste ur prdpaid.

And finally you can say MAMA IM WORRIED FOR YOU.
Really? Ok. Thanks. Signing off. And oh whoever that is on ur pm! Hope you’ll get together soon..

*Listening to ’ A MESSAGE FROM ME TO U’*
( The only way i can feel like youre by myside.)

~Ayeshah~

Panguni 2010!~

Okay, so today was panguni. Like Thaipusam, ppl fast and carry huge kavadi’s and pully stuff to te temple. :) i was more then glad to be part of this event today.

Met up with janu and sonia and her perima(ma) and went down to the tent where they did the piercings. It was like normal. So then as pack’d as it was, from the side of our eyes, this spark flew across when we saw each other.

This boi, Tall, not too dark, had long side burns, big baby eyes, and the most contagious smile yet seen. he played the urumi melam(drums) and i walk’d past him 3 times. On the 3rd time, we had a 5sec eye to eye contact and i felt like i lost my soul in his eyes!

We moved out after that and wen i turn’d back to look at him, he was looking out for me. OMG! When i felt the temple ta about 7-ish, i felt like i was leaving something behind… :(

I posted out a shout out on facebook saying that i was looking at him too and if he reconised me, Do add me.

Pray for me ppl.

I miss ayeshah like crazy wazy. She was suppose to come today but… Girl talK! Anyways, i’m off to bed now. Stupid Devandran Palanisamy’s not picking my calls up and aiz… i’m sad but i cannot be bother’d la.. haiz..

Nite world!

~Michi!

Urm..

I COULDNT SLEEP!

so i did an Original Love Compatibilty Test..

Here it its!

LoveTest Results for:

Nur Aishah Bte Abdullah & Indra Sharul Bin Anuar

LoveTest Questionnaire Analysis:

Indra Sharul Bin Anuar loves you, Nur Aishah Bte Abdullah!

There are always ups and downs in every relationship. Although you think you know a lot about your partner already, you might want to spend some more quality time together. Love, trust, understanding, affection, honesty, tolerance and loyalty are very important factors for a successful relationship. Think about what’s still missing in your relationship and how you could improve it.

This result is based on the answers which you selected in the LoveTest questionnaire.

Numerology Analysis:

Nur Aishah Bte Abdullah is 91 percent compatible with Indra Sharul Bin Anuar

Indra Sharul Bin Anuar is 43 percent compatible with Nur Aishah Bte Abdullah

These percentages are based on the names which you entered at the beginning of the LoveTest. 

Personality Analysis

Your personality, Nur Aishah Bte Abdullah:

You have high standards and you insist on being treated with respect. There is no way you will compromise. You are sensitive, intellectual and you like parties and people. You are honest, direct and will bare your soul to those you care about. You are a very giving person, always willing to offer advice to those in trouble, You are quite capable of doing a man’s job and seldom pick your mate based on what he can do for you. You love to travel and must feel independent in your existence. You do require a great deal of love and companionship, however it must be on your terms. You are not that eager to marry and you seek intellectual stimulation foremost.

You tend to match up to most signs in a friendly manner, but when it comes to love some signs are better than others.

Indra Sharul Bin Anuar’s personality:

In love relationships you are prone to sulking, daydreaming and you can be somewhat idealistic about the role you play. You do love beautiful women however you also insist that the love of your life be a good conversationalist as well. You are possessive once you fall in love and you expect a great deal from your mate. You cling to your Memories, old friends and habits and you truly resist any form of change. You are generally lucky in love and usually attract beautiful, bright women.

Your sensitive nature can be difficult to deal with. You are often misunderstood at an emotional level You need a mate that can understand your tenderness.

Astrological Compatibility Analysis

Aquarius (air sign)

21 January - 19 February

The sign of the water-bearer. Aquarians are very friendly people, great conversationalists and thinkers. They are regularly involved in some kind of intellectual study or debate, but never really let on to others how well informed they really are. Because of this they are unpredictable and full of surprises, you can never tell what an Aquarian will do next.

Cancer (water sign)

22 June - 22 July

The sign of the crab. Cancerians are tender loving and kind, they also have immense sympathy for those less fortunate than themselves., which in turn makes them very emotional people. A Cancerian will gladly sacrifice something they love for the ones they love. They are very homey people, preferring a quiet night in to a party.

Aquarius & Cancer

You are far too aloof for the insecure Crab. Not a likely encounter, highly dangerous for Cancer and somewhat binding for you.

Cancer & Aquarius

You are far too sensitive for the Water-bearers aloofness. Aquarians cannot tolerate your need to cling to them.



SO? ARE WE COMPATIBLE? I HAVE NO IDAE -.-
Nyte tumblers.

~Ayeshah~ 

Tagged Journal Rewinds.

2 Days ago my lovely Sonia gt her awesome tattoo !! OM!

Done by the AWESOME JOE FINCH!



Well instead of really concerntrating on that, i was actually excited to see what papa journalled abt me. So i couldnt wait to get back home. Hmm.. Bt i def enjoyed the day with my aygs though! Dont get me wrong! =)

Hmm.. Came back and checked.. and this is what he wrote..

So touched! Like WOW! So he wanted me to write about him too.
Here i go!



Obviously he was touched too.. He was so happy!
and we texted and texted and texted and texted..
One question lead to another…

And something happen… He ask for something that i couldnt gave an answer to..
So he went to bed arnd 1 and at 2:26 a.m
i journalled again… i couldnt go to slp..


Awful as it is..
yeap i wrote that.. Haish..
and i went to slp with major headache and abdominal pain.

And this morning after his match,(btw he won)!
He went back and read the journal i wrote which i dont wanna let him read.
But.. It brought him to tears again… Haish..

Papa, u know i love you right? I care fer you more than any other bytches in the world would care for you..
And you know that.
So please dont let me hurt you. Pls.


Dont know if now hes still sleeping after that tiring match..
Prolly talk to him later..

p.s:
Papa, AYESHAH WILL NEVER BE LIKE SHARENA OR DEWI! OK! GET THAT IN YOUR BRAIN! haha.. dem BYTCHES CAN DIE! Nyaahahahahah…

Me Love you Buchuk! *Muuuaaaaaaahhhh*

~Ayeshah~